Wednesday, April 29, 2009


So for the last few day I have been dealing with a very cranky, clingy, teething baby. Last night as I was holding her as she cried I was thinking about how I would like to just be able to take away the pain. She was in so much pain she could not sleep. She would plant her face in to her bed and scream. Every few hours she is awake in pain.

So as I was holding her I was thinking about taking away her pain, and I thought about all the pain that my family and I have gone through over the last few years. I pictured God holding me in his arms while I cried and screamed about how the pain was unbearable. I am not denying that a lot of my/our pain was our fault. We made a lot of choices that caused pain. But here was the thing that I think that I really took away from this picture. If the baby doesn't teeth she will have to gum her food for the rest of her life. Teething is part of the process of growing up, it painful and it hurts. We grow up by getting though the hard and painful times in our lives. We don't need to dwell in/on them, but sometimes we need to go through them so that we can grow up.

If I had never made bad choices about money, I would not have learned to trust God with what little I do have. Its tough. Trusting the pain of teething will go away is easy for babies they don't remember that pain. If I asked my 6yr old if he remembered teething he would say no.

I am praying that some day I will remember the time learning to trust God with my money because I have "teeth" to show for it. Not because there was pain involved.
I have spend a lot of days crying in the arms of the Father, but He was and is always there for me, just like for the rest of my life I will be there for my daughter. I will carry her as much as I can, then I will trust her to my Father. He is big enough.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;

My confession tonight is that I WILL TRUST THE LORD!